A Reader wrote:
Hi everyone. I'm a foreign student who is currently studying in America. When I first came to the USA it was ok, I made some friends and people were very impressed by my speaking skills, 'cause they said I did not have any accent, stuff like that and I made some great accomplishments by getting into my school's student leadership program, and some teachers were very impressed by thoughtful answers.
Anyway, as time passed I have been not feeling well, I felt very out of place, and the friends I made felt very superficial, and I felt I could not trust them. Then when I got more separated from them I felt it is very difficult for me get close to people again, I did not shy away from some random conversations. Then I felt like I wanted to be acknowledged but when I got the acknowledgment I did not want that and I just backed away.
As time progressed I found myself with no true friend here, but that is not the issue, and then I started losing interest in what I was doing, like my studies went down. I felt very terrified to approach teachers and ask them questions to help me out with problems so on. And then I stopped doing my lessons at all. I felt nothing, I felt so empty. I felt nothing will fill the void inside of me. Then one day I did not go to school at all I just stayed in bed the whole day, it felt so comfortable yet also at same time not very assuring, and I felt more comfortable staying home so basically I started not going out at all for few days. And deep inside something was eating me, I did not even want to share this info with my family or my close friends, I felt they would not understand.
And there were days I thought things that were not pleasant, I felt jealousy towards and hatred towards someone I love, and sometimes I thought of living all alone not worrying about anything, and there was one time when I thought about ending my life.
That's when I went to a therapist, and I was diagnosed with depression.
I just want to know did anyone ever felt same things as i did, wanted to be alone, felt nobody would understand me (not in a EMO way), or thought about taking your life. 'Cause I heard on many occasions that left handed people are more prone to diseases similar to depression.